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Still not super active here, sorry ^^;

Not much to update on, everything has been pretty normal, just battling some inner demons, aka my depression. Its something I have been suffering with for the past 10 years and it has been a struggle, but I am finally working on it cause I somehow finally convinced myself that I am worth it. Before I would always let my depression run my thoughts and take me into a reality that doesn't exist...if that makes any sense.

Basically I would take something that someone said, or did, and my mind would take it as something negative and it would make me feel sad, or hurt, which in effect causes a spiral of other negative thoughts, creating this false reality that people don't actually care and everyone hates me in some sort of way. Well, it took a serious long talk with my brother and my boyfriend to make me realize that I don't need to live that false reality, and the true reality is not as bad. Yes life is hard and there are times that will make you stress and struggle, but you have to keep moving forward and work through things. As of right now, if one of those negative thoughts creeps up on me, I try to distract myself by listening to youtube, and I convince myself that it is really not that big of a deal, and not to take everything everyone says or does to heart. This whole thing goes on a much deeper scale as to why I have depression and anxiety, but I won't get into those details because they are personal ^^;

So if anyone out there is battling depression as well, just remind yourself that those inner demons will try to twist your reality and make you feel worse, causing more depression. Don't let the spiral happen. Tell the depression to f*** off, tell yourself that your worth it. Love yourself, life is short, and we are here for only a moment it seems, so enjoy your stay :) make the best of any situation. Don't focus on the negatives and look at the positives. When you feel like your struggling, just smile and accept the challenges in life. The sun will continue to rise and whatever may be bothering you will eventually subside.

Also.. it sounds silly, but I kind of take inspiration from this song ^^' If you listen to the words it sends a good message.

Alright, im done rambling lol


My depression is fully set in. I have no interest in anything anymore. A part of me has been ripped away. Sorry guys..
Updated my page for Valentines day :U I I have no life xD
I can't draw noses. Curse you Irkens and your nose lacking faces.. >.>


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GPLeader Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2017  Student General Artist
Happy Birthday!!

if ur still on here, that is ):
TwilightIsMagic Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2017  Student General Artist
:iconpartypinkieplz::iconsaysplz:Haaaaaaappy happy birthday to our good friend today!
:iconpinkiestarryeyesplz::iconsaysplz:Here's a little birthday song with something I must say!
:iconpinkieishappyplz::iconsaysplz:On this day we celebrate having you with us!
:iconpinkiepartyplz::iconsaysplz:Throw a party here for you I'll make sure is a blast!
:iconpinkiehappyplz::iconsaysplz:I wish you only happiness, that your life's full of smiles!
:iconbrilliantpinkieplz::iconsaysplz:That you and your friends will prevail in any troubling times!
:iconpinkiebrilliantplz::iconsaysplz:Most of all, I wish for you that you'll have lots of fun!
:iconpinkiegalaplz::iconsaysplz:And share it with all close to you, spread happiness around!
:iconhotbloodedpinkieplz::iconsaysplz:OR ELSE!
:iconpinkiepiesmileplz::iconsaysplz:So let's get down to business now, there'll be no more delays!
:iconpinkiepiecakeplz::iconsaysplz:On to the birthday party, celebrate this joyous daaaaay!
DaggerBark Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2017  Student Digital Artist
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GPLeader Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2017  Student General Artist
GPLeader Featured By Owner Apr 14, 2017  Student General Artist
u there??
GPLeader Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2017  Student General Artist
DrKAnd Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2016
im glad you are back , miss you and your art :D
GPLeader Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2016  Student General Artist
*hugs u* thank u so much!!
MyHysteria Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Your welcome! Merry Christmas! :)
GPLeader Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2016  Student General Artist
And merry Christmas to u too
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